DEPRESSION: LIFE WITH YOU SOMETIMES IS LIKE A SHIP DESTINED TO SINK

I know you still wish that I remain in this state

And maybe not address my fate

For even if I try not to acknowledge you

I know I’d still feel you

Even in the deep recesses of my mind

I know you’ll never be kind

But I promise you’re not excused

For being the reason I won’t shine

Because even as rain falls on all of us the same

Every day you’re the source of my shame

And nobody hears as I cry out in pain

You’re the reason my mind is a whirlpool

Of every misdeed it is indeed a cesspool

A cesspool of broken promises

Lies filled with shame and crises

I have tried, I swear, to let go of you

But in the end, you come back for you are me and I am you

The reason I cannot express in words or tears

How much I would love to love life and my fears

The reason my heart is so conflicted with living this lie

This lie that life can be beautiful so sometimes I wish to die

See I didn’t choose to feel miserable

I’m just hounded by voices in my head that my life isn’t incredible

Miserable for I cannot shake this feeling

That I’m living life like a weakling

I feel you in my bones, in every quiver of my beating heart

Just end this someday for I know not this art

This art of living life as a recluse

When all I want is to feel I’m of some use

But I have to let go of you, please leave

For I cannot continue with this pet peeve

You made me think you’re the source of my misery

Yes, but trust me, you’ll regret this sorcery

I’m a fighter baby, so even if you have my mind

Trust me, you’ll never have my heart

I’ll fight back, until I die

Cause baby I know you’re a lie

I am just a soldier

Who doesn’t know when to give up

I’m a lion, the king who always stands up

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